Disclaimer: The model in this article attempts to describe how depression, as well as other conditions such as recklessness, shame, upset, and a lack of fulfillment may emerge. However, I just want to add a disclaimer that I don’t know if this model is 100% correct. It’s just a theory. Sufficient evidence might disprove parts or all of it, just as any theory or way of viewing reality can later be disproved.
Furthermore, my reference to depression is not so much directed at clinical depression, but rather at the feeling of being depressed, or bummed up, draggy, etc – as I have witnessed inside myself, though the depression I talk about here and clinical depression may be one in the same. I can only say that I have never been diagnosed, and my experiences may differ greatly from someone who has. Given these facts, if the information in this article doesn’t seem to match up with cases of clinical depression as you know about them, then that may not be a mistake on my part, but rather due to the fact that I’m not addressing clinical depression. However, I will take a moment here at the start of the article to briefly address clinical depression as a topic.
(If you want to skip to what seems to me to be the cure for depression, skip to the part of the article entitled “In summary:”.)
Depression and Depressed Feelings
“True clinical depression” is defined by the National Library of Medicine in the US as: “a mood disorder in which feelings of sadness, loss, anger, or frustration interfere with everyday life for weeks or longer”.
This may be a short definition for a very complex topic, but it will do for now. By this definition, it does seem that one or two patterns within the model I will lay out shortly does correspond to this condition, known as depression, as it has been documented by others.
But if I am just talking about (depressed) feelings, doesn’t that mean it is temporary? The depression I’m talking about can indeed be temporary, and last as short as a few minutes, but it also has the possibility to last much much longer, due to the idea that feelings seem to be generated largely by our perceptions, rather than what is perceived. If the perceptions generating our depressed state are not addressed, or if they change to ones generating further depression, conceivably such a condition could not only go on for long periods of time, but it could get worse. As is hinted at here, the main way of solving depression seems to have to do with changing certain perceptions. But which ones, and how?
I feel like changing perceptions is a natural by-product of working through inner conflicts, and that by working through those conflicts, we change our perceptions in such a way that a depressed state is no longer necessary. The model below explains why, and is a theoretical explanation for how depression works, starts, what keeps it in place, and what can be done to solve it.
The Model – How Inner Conflicts and Depression May Be Connected
Contention 1 – Inner forces: In our inner lives, there seem to be a number of different forces that can act in conjunction with each other or, at times, conflict with each other. This concept can easily be seen with such phenomena as moral dilemmas, which exist as a state where, generally speaking, the direction one feels like taking is in conflict with the limitations of behavior that one places on one’s self for moral reasons. Another example would be the concept of cognitive dissonance. Both of these examples demonstrate a state where a human being can have conflict between their inner forces, thus suggesting that there is more than one inner force, but many, or rather that the inner system that manifests as one person contains a variety of forces that CAN conflict with each other. Furthermore, the existence of conflict between inner forces suggests that there can be a lack of conflict between them as well.
Contention 2 – Conflicts with our Willpower: One type of conflict that can emerge seems to be between our willpower, or rather our will to move in certain directions that interest us, and any of the other inner forces.
These conflicts can be witnessed in feelings of hesitation, inhibition, struggle, stage-fright, procrastination, doubt, and moral dilemmas, just to name some. All these conflicts seem to have the basic pattern of there being a difference between what we want or wish to do and what we actually feel like doing or think we should do.
Contention 3 – Breaking Free can be Reckless: One way to respond to inner conflict is by ignoring, denying, or “pushing past” the inner force that is opposing your willpower. Phrases such as “throw caution to the wind”, “push past it”, or “let it go” reveal the existence of this decision within our everyday reality. It’s when we feel something that pulls us back but just go ahead anyway. The benefit of this approach is that we get to do and pursue what we want, and that can feel liberating. However, the danger with this method is that it can lead one towards reckless, uninformed, or unwise behavior, since one’s actions aren’t being tempered by considerations encouraged by the other inner forces inside of one’s self. In essence, one’s willpower isn’t always right, and sometimes one’s feelings, the ones one might rather push past, ignore, or deny, actually have something to share that could help you with how you make the choices you do.
One example of the recklessness of separation is with fear. While ignoring fear may seem courageous or heroic, it can also be quite dangerous, since fear comes up in response to perceived threats, and if those threats aren’t taken into consideration, you might do something like gamble your life AND actually end up losing it. With this in mind, pushing past fear can be seen as being very able to produce reckless behavior.
Contention 4 – The Probable Cause of Depression: A second method of handling these conflicts with our will is to give in to the inner forces that pull us back, and to stop moving towards what we want, since fighting with ourselves to get to it can feel too tiring or difficult to bother trying. This is where depression can occur, as well as feelings of being upset. It’s what happens when we give up, give in, “lose the will to fight”, and/or settle for less in our life than what we want. We end up wanting things without actually pursuing them, or wishing for life to be different without actually taking steps to change it. And we might not even see a way TO change our life for the better. This also seems to produce negativity and bitterness.
In other words, our willpower, rather than pushing past all feeling in pursuit of what it wants, can go to the other extreme: giving in to the forces that conflict with it, and allowing them to dominate and limit what they can or cannot do. Ideas like “follow your dreams”, “shoot for the stars”, “believe in yourself”, and ignoring naysayers seem to be in response to this condition, and are meant as ideas to help break people out this condition of skipping out on the pursuit of what they want because of the feelings that get in the way. Feelings like shame, generated and enforced by one of the dominate non-will inner forces (like one’s judgment), may keep this condition in place.
Contention 5 – Restoring Harmony: The ideal condition of the inner system seems to be when the inner forces act in harmony with each other, rather than in conflict. Yet, with conflict so common, a way of working back towards a state of harmony seems important as a means of solving the downsides of the methods of dealing with conflict mentioned in Contentions 3 and 4. After all, it would be better to be neither reckless OR depressed, wouldn’t it? The key to achieving harmony seems to be in resolving the conflicts between the willpower (“you”) and the inner forces (“your feelings”), when they appear. Sometimes, however, states of conflict can become habituated and so conflicts may not be apparent within awareness. However, the symptoms of depression and upset will still appear, as will other clues, such as conflicts with other people, since other people have feeling intelligence like you do as well, and even if you ignore your own feelings, their feelings might prompt them to conflict with you. If these conflicts cause upset, anger, or you feel unequipped to answer them, this is a clue for a feeling that you have perhaps an unresolved conflict with. Working through the upset that other people cause in you, and examining the argument they seem to be presenting to you fairly, seems to be a good enough approach to restoring harmony to the connection with the feeling that was brought into your awareness by the other people’s argument.
Contention 6 – The Importance of Assertiveness and Listening: Assertiveness and being willing to stand up for one’s self and what one wants seem to be essential to solving depression, since it seems that giving in to the opinions and feelings of other inner forces causes depression. At the same time, the ability to listen to one’s conflicting feelings seems equally important, as being open to what one’s feelings have to say and share with you, and looking at the reasons for why those feelings exist, can help to bring wisdom and consideration to one’s actions as well as to help the side of one’s self who feels conflicted to calm down.
- Conflicts that occur between inner forces can prompt us to choose one of two unhealthy options: one produces reckless or unwise behavior in us (though freeing), while the other produces feelings of depression, negativity, and upset.
- The way to solve depression seems to be, rather than ignore our feelings, to try and resolve the conflicts we have with our feelings.
- To resolve inner conflicts, it seems we need to bring those conflicts to the surface through various methods:
- Look at what we want and see what’s standing in our way, then try to understand the inner force that’s blocking us and see if there’s a way to answer the reasoning that inner force brings to the table.
- Work through the upset or anger that other people’s criticisms or conflicting attitudes can cause in us
- Two skills that seem important for this process of conflict resolution seem to be assertiveness and listening.
- Restoring harmony, which can also be called friendship, to a conflicted relationship between inner forces seems like the ideal solution for addressing inner conflicts.
This all goes back to the point about perceptions causing feelings, and how changing perceptions can change feelings. Say for example you’re experiencing fear. If, without denying your fear, you can convince your fear that what it feels threatened by isn’t really a threat, if you can change its perception, then your perception, on the level of what is a threat and what isn’t, changes, and so the fear will just go away. As long as the fear persists, there’s still some perceived danger, meaning continuing to listen to that feeling and ask why that feeling is there and what danger it’s perceiving may help to get to the root of the problem within your perception, where you can address your own attitudes and perhaps identify for yourself a new way of looking at the situation that will alleviate your feelings from the inside out.
Of course, sometimes we don’t have the time or the luxury to resolve the conflicts with our feelings. Luckily, we still have the options of either pushing past our feelings or giving into the them. Ultimately, us, with our willpower, still gets to make the call. But as long as we have SOME kind of method of working through these inner conflicts, we can always make a decision to give in or push past while still intending to come back to the conflict later and resolve it.
Conflict Resolution: A Method for Resolving Depressed Feelings (and Recklessness)
Below is one method that, using the understanding from the above model of how depression works, aims to bring whoever uses it (like you!) out of a depressed slump by calling out the feelings with which they conflict and giving them a means to work through that conflict and move back towards feeling better. Granted, many forces may conflict with one’s willpower, so simply using this technique once might not be enough. However, theoretically, if you use it, it should allow you to boost your mood significantly. Even if you resolve the conflict with just one conflicting side of you, that’s one less thing standing between you and what you want. Granted, your ideas of what you want may change as you do this, but how or if they change is totally up to you, and this process really is meant to allow you to fully respect what you want, no matter what it is. That said, here is the step-by-step method:
- What do you want? Open up a text document and write down a list of what you want. If you can’t come up with anything, write down what you wish for. Even if you’re not actively pursuing these things, or even if they’re impossible (such as for the past to change), then chances are you still can feel out what those things are. Feeling like on is able to pursue these things or conditions seems to be the main cause for either upset or depression.
- Pick one. Take ONE of the items on the list – the one that maybe you want or wish for THE MOST, and in a new text document (or in a new section below your list) write out both what you want or wish for your argument for why you want it.
- Identify the conflict. Why can’t, or shouldn’t, you have what you want or wish for? On the next line, write as if you are telling yourself WHY you can’t or shouldn’t have what you want or wish for. Get in the voice of the FEELING that conflicts with your desire. Treat it like another character – it doesn’t have to sound like you. It might sound like someone really judgmental (“you can’t have that because you’re worthless and shouldn’t have good things like that”), or maybe fearful (“no I don’t think that’s a good thing to want!! That sounds dangerous and scary!! Please don’t go for that!”), maybe down to earth (“look, it’s crazy to want that – I mean get your head out of the clouds – something like that just isn’t possible! Let it go!!”), or any other feeling. The main point here is to express the other side of the conflict.
- Work through it. From here, let the debate happen, and move to a new line each time you change speakers. Really let each side bring their energy to the table – don’t settle for either giving in to the feeling or just judging everything it has to say and pushing past it – instead, try to let neither force lose the fight. If, when everything is laid out on the table, one side naturally adjusts to the other, or maybe there’s give or take on both sides, that’s something positive – that works as a solution. The point is to get both sides going in the same direction, so your feeling is on board with your willpower, and they find a point of agreement. Let each side try to convince the other. If there was total agreement from the get-go, you wouldn’t have had this conflict in the first place! Another way of thinking about it is that you want to restore balance, heal the relationship between these two sides, bring the relationship back to a positive state, a state which could be identified as one of friendship. Depending on the intensity of the animosity of the two sides towards each other at the start, this could be very, very difficult. However, at least, no matter how bad the relationship is, there is at least a means through this method to bring those conflicts to the forefront and actively work through them
It seems that, from the model described earlier, that the cure for depression, interestingly enough, seems to have to do with friendship, harmony, and positive relationships between the various forces that exist inside ourselves. The more we can act in harmony with our feelings, the more we are able to feel less conflicted and free to act, as well as benefit from the insights and considerations our feelings bring to the table. And on the external level, the less other people, and situations, will be able to upset us.
The idea that we might be able to not be upset by anything may seem rather pie-in-the-sky, but think of how it CAN just feel normal to act without inner conflict with regard to certain actions. We’re probably not that conflicted when it comes to mundane things like going to the bathroom. What if we could find ways of being as unconflicted about most if not all our things in life? Or, if that’s not possible, at least we might learn to appreciate the forces that conflict with us, and to have the humility to admit that while the decisions we make may seem good, the objections our feelings raise to those decisions might prove to be right after all.
Perhaps the greatest benefit of this model is in feeling like there is a way OUT of persistent depression, that we are not necessarily hopeless victims when it comes to our feelings. And when we know how to move towards what we want, and how to stand up to our feelings, depression loses its grip, since we are able to live or actively work towards (which is sometimes the best we can do) the life that we want, in all aspects of our wanting. Yes, while moving towards what we want we may still have to learn how to live without it, but we can still, at any time, decide to put in effort towards the life we want. And that, even when nothing is the way we want it yet, seems like something to remain positive about.
Wikipedia article on Major Depressive Disorder – for a reference on clinical depression as a topic
Negativity – article on the condition that, alongside depressed feelings, seems to result from giving up in one’s willpower due to what other inner forces are saying with respect to certain areas of life (such as one’s mind telling you you HAVE no way forward).
Impatience - another experience rooted in inner conflict that can prompt one to give up more easily